Thursday, June 10, 2010

So Fine

Yesterday began thee most rewarding way to spend time.  Levi now stares back at me, and then we smile huge toothless or toothy grins (depending on who's who) for about ten infinities.  It's taken a month for us to become best buddies.  I'm set.  What else is there?

We stood together in front of a mirror and Levi smiled at my reflection, skipping his own (which makes sense developmentally on his part).  As a human, I have this horrible ego problem where I like to be appreciated and maybe even looked at as an intelligent or strong person by people that I like or love.  All of this becomes a crumbly, crusty piece of nothing when he smiles at me.  I love the way he looks at me simply because I love him so much, and maybe his expressions show that he's learning to love me too.

An ego is such a waste of time, but I must mention that it will be totally acceptable if Levi someday feels at least remotely about his father and me the way I feel about my mom and dad.  If he looks up to me even when he's taller than me, I'll be honored.  But today I don't have to be smart, strong, nice, funny, or anything else because I'm Levi's mom, Aaron's wife, and my Father's daughter.  I'm free, humbled, and incapable of conveying how much this rules.  

Earlier this afternoon Levi and I drove aimlessly up Highway 1 on another day when the silvery ocean was the same as the sky since nothing separated the two.  He snored peacefully in his car seat behind me.  The mastery of creation overwhelmed each of my senses.

There's no logical place to end this entry because so many great things seem to be beginning.   

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Beautiful Boy

Levi likes to smile...

WHEN THE CAMERA IS OFF.  Usually.  He's a natural but he's not your circus monkey.

Other things of note:

Milk coming out the nose.  Twice.  He inhales deeply and frantically for some reason, then milk trickles out and it hurts.  We wipe it and he carries on feeding.  Peace is restored, life is good.

Sleeping for seven plus hours at night.  Kid, you ARE a natural.

Digging on the Grateful Dead.  Box of Rain specifically agrees with Levi.  He also seems to like Chopin, Pink Floyd, M83 and Talking Heads' Slippery People.

We take one small road trip per day.  Last week we discovered alpacas.  This week, emus.

Hikes:  Our first hike as an immediate family of three took place on May 30th.  We went to Corralitos Creek with cousins Kyle and Drew.  Levi slept peacefully the whole time packed up cozily on mama.  A bat flew overhead in the middle of the day and we checked him out.  Drew searched for and successfully located several redwood salamanders.  Our second hike took place today, June 5th.  We all-terrain strollered through the mighty redwoods of Nisene Marks.  Levi seemed curious or possibly bewildered.  He had some milk by a creek.  His father and I sauntered the way John Muir did, pushing Levi through and over terrain steeper than what we imagined other one-month-olds have had access to.  Aaron says that Levi is already a brave little man.

Brave, cute, so on, so forth--our love for this kid is supreme.  I've never known of a stronger, more real contentedness.